Once again, it's been a while since my last post. The biggest news is that I started doing foster care on October 17th, 2013 and my 10-year old girl went back to her home on February 26th. It happened pretty quickly actually, which is how it often goes in foster care. Her family had court on the 25th and she was back home on the 26th. I do miss her and I miss having someone to take care of (sort of). It's been a really busy and crazy year so far, actually starting from my foster care experience. My mom also went into a nursing home in January, which is another big change. Hence, the name of my blog post today. :)
I thought I would be doing so many things once I had "time to myself." The truth is that I kind of shut down after being so busy and so crazy. I have had a really limited amount of motivation and have been having trouble doing the things I need to do. I "think" about doing a lot and I really want to get "back into the groove" but the truth is that many nights after work I come home, plop on my couch, and watch T.V. Sometimes I will spend a little time in one of the rooms upstairs trying to organize and get rid of things. There are two rooms of my mom's things upstairs that are filled with lots of garage sale items, office supplies, and just "junk." In the midst of all the stuff up there, I have also been coming across memories, which can be fun but often hard. I am reminded of how great things "used to be" with my mom and how I slowly became the evil daughter in her eyes as the dementia progressed. I could say lots about this particular topic, but I will save it for my other blog called "The Chronicles of Helen." brenda-thechroniclesofhelen.blogspot.com. Check it out if you feel like it.
The good news is that I think I am making some progress in getting out of my slump. I am still sitting here alone in this big empty (and messy) house but I didn't come home today and immediately head for the couch. Okay, I am here now but the TV is not on and I am typing in my blog! This is something I often think about and rarely do. I even come up with narratives for my blog while I am driving in the car. I'm sure they have software now that can translate my recordings into typed text. I should really look into that. Anyway, I'll take the small steps. I also bought myself a new pair of sneakers yesterday in hopes that it would motivate me to go running (I have a half-marathon in 2 1/2 weeks and the farthest I've run is 3 miles!) but alas I didn't make it outside. Unfortunately when I had my foster child (Let's call her Sara), I did minimal running. I had Sara run with me one day and we did less than a mile the first day. The second time we went was a few weeks later and she wanted a doughnut at Dunkin Donuts. I told her that if she wanted one, she would have to run with me to Dunkin Donuts and we would have to run at least a mile. LOL. Dunkin Donuts is less than a mile from my house so we had to circle around a little and we actually ended up doing about a mile and a half. Those two runs and a handful of times at the YMCA were my extent of exercise for 4 1/2 months and I'm having a difficult time getting back into the routing and also changing my eating habits. I know this is just an excuse but I really can't wait for the warmer weather. I feel like it makes it so hard to get motivated. I'm just trying to make sense of it all. I know I just need to schedule things in order to get myself motivated. So any of my local friends reading this, pin me down for a date to do anything to get me out of the house, especially exercise! I really have no valid excuse for not doing it! (Crap, I hope I didn't just set myself up for trouble there!)
So much to say and I'm sure that this seems very disjointed and unorganized but that IS how I am! Ha ha! I just want to make sure I get it all out. I'm looking at making a major change in regards to "career." Not sure if I should be "putting this in writing" but here goes....
Whenever I think about what I really and truly enjoy doing, it often comes back to event planning. I really enjoy planning various events for not-for-profit organizations. There are jobs as Development Directors for several organizations but most of these jobs require experience. I'm sure I can get some of this experience through volunteering but I need to do this during the day. Therefore, I'm seriously thinking about getting a job as a waitress and using my daytime hours to pursue this goal. It may sound crazy but it's something I have wanted to do for a very long time so I figured I should go for it. It's scary and exciting all at the same time. I will keep you posted! So far, I haven't yet applied for any waitressing jobs, but I've "thought" about where I want to apply! Yikes! I just need to do it! Pray for me to get the motivation I need to make the next step. Once I get there I know I can do great things! Are you with me? ;)
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