In a Funk

So lately I've been in kind of a funk.  I'm hoping that we'll get some nice weather soon and it will help me to get out of this.  Do you ever have those times when you can think about and picture all the things you need to do but you just can't force your body to do it?  Well that's been me.  I am able to go to work, do my job, and come home.  Then throw in getting sick and I'm just a mess!

I had the stomach bug on Friday and I literally couldn't move except to go to the bathroom and puke or poop.  Sorry to be graphic but that's pretty much it!  I started feeling better on Saturday except for a headache and I was going to bake a cake for my friend and my friend's daughter for a little birthday get-together at my friend's house.  I was thankful for the motivation to do something.  Through an e-mail discussion of the day, one of my friend's sort of indicated that I should stay home.  I'm not sure if it was meant to be a joke or not, but I simply opted out of going.  I don't know if I was being overly sensitive or not but I felt pretty bad about missing it and not fulfilling my promise to my little friend.  Granted, I will be able to make it up to her but it will have to be after her birthday.

I have little motivation to reach out to others but I am trying.  I still have some friends and family members who "check in on me" but I feel extremely lonely these days.  I know it's just a phase and I will get over it but it kinda sucks right now.  I know this is different from my usual posts and this is just my way of getting it out; my online journal.  I was doing pretty good before I got sick and I thought I was getting back on track but I guess getting sick kind of sidelined me a bit.  Tomorrow is a new day and I have work and plans to get together with friends soon so hopefully that will put me back on track again.

I'm also looking at a career change and just need to do the steps necessary to get there.  I will keep you posted after I have made some of the steps.  I don't think many people read this blog, especially since I haven't written in quite a while, but if you are, I'm sorry for being such a downer today.

Tomorrow will be a better day. :)