Wednesday, February 20, 2013

Kindness and Honesty

I know I'm on a roll today with posting, but I had several different subjects I wanted to write about and I didn't want to lump it all into one.  Kindness and honesty is something that I think about often.  Now, I know I'm not perfect and I make tons of mistakes but I really do try to be a good and decent person and I try to do the right thing.  I try not to judge others but I suppose we all do at some point without realizing it at times.  I really try not to though!  I will start by saying that I have been blessed in my life with some really wonderful people who are kind and thoughtful, and honest so I have a really hard time when someone is not.  It really bothers me deep down into my soul and it hurts me at times.  Will I get over it? Yes. Will I move on? Yes. Does it still bother me? Yes!

Some of you know what I am referring to here and others may wonder but I really struggle with the fact that one person's lies can cause damage to so many people, especially when the person is preying on kind and decent people.  I will never understand it.  I continue to pray every night for this person as well as many other people but I don't see any change.  I know that I just need to accept the fact that I can't change anyone on my own and whatever will be will be.  At times, this is easier to do than others.  Today, I am having a more difficult time with this and with accepting this fact of life.  Tomorrow will be better.

I'm sorry for my rambling and for going on and on.  This is more for me than for anything else and it helps me to process it all. It's like my journal for all to see! LOL. But I need to put it out there and to just let it go.  I truly am happier without the negativity in my life that was there but I worry about other women that may fall victim to the same lies and negativity that I endured.  I think that I unfortunately need to let that go and work on something that I can do to help others and that is foster care.  I wanted to do it several years ago and now I can! That's why I'm working on getting all of the important stuff done.

God Grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, the courage to change the things I can, and the wisdom to know the difference.

That was a short post, but somehow it was helpful to get it out. Please bare with me as I work through and past this in posts from time to time.  Luckily there is only a small group of you who reads this. LOL! :)

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