Hi All!
It's been a while since my last post but I've been super busy! I've been working on my house and getting things done! Yay!
I was originally going to write a post with the title "Buggin Out" and tell you about my experience with head lice. Yuck! Yes, it finally happened.... I got head lice from one of my little preschoolers. I'm all clear now and I made it through! I will talk about this at a later time. Right now, I need to vent about my ex. I usually keep these types of things to myself but I feel the need to get some things out of my system and figured this is a good place to do it!
I will start by saying that I am doing great! I am happier than I have been in a while and as I said above, I am making progress and getting things done. :) I have even been texting with someone that I met online and have plans to meet. As I think I mentioned in a previous post, this is not my main focus at this time but it's nice to be taking things slow and getting to know someone. I will definitely be more cautious than I have been in the past and will not ignore red flags.
So, here goes. My ex has continued to text me since we broke up over the summer. Most of the time I ignore the texts. Sometimes I respond in anger. Sometimes I respond with words of encouragement, depending on the situation. I will admit that I needed to text about a house question regarding some work he did in the past because I am having some other work done now. Most of all, I am trying to move on and the periodic texts that I receive about his "emptiness" without me and things that he wishes we were doing together anger me. He spent much of our relationship lying to me and seeing other women. He will blame it on something that I did or didn't do, but the bottom line is that he wasn't honest about anything. I have moved past this for the most part and am happy with my life. The thing that I worry about is other women being victimized by this man. After telling me how empty he feels without me a few days ago and wishing me a Happy Valentines Day today, he was spotted at PF Changs with a woman and her two young children. I couldn't help myself and I had to say something (via text). He of course vehemently denied that he was even there. My source is a very reliable one so I don't doubt it for a minute. His information, on the other hand, is not so reliable from past experience.
I know I can't save them all or maybe not even any of them, but I just have such a hard time accepting this. I also don't want to be a nasty person but sometimes it happens. Anyway, I just needed to vent about that a little. I generally try to be positive and I have done really well with moving on and moving forward, but when I get these texts and then hear about a "sighting" it just churns up some of the old anger and anxiety. I figured this time, rather than letting it fester, I would get it out and it actually feels good!
I'm gonna stop there for now and will hope not to revisit this anytime soon! Stay tuned for more updates regarding foster care and house preparation. :) And I am on vacation after tomorrow! Can't wait! Yippee! Wahoo! OK, I'm done!
P.S. Looks like venting won out over reflections! LOL!
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